S and I...

ok blogging time... yes... i have choose to blog to keep myself occupied... so pls bear with my super longggggggg entries... at least for the moment...

ok... things happened between S and i... when i tot we were almost endin, i cried... i cldnt help but cry cos whenever i start a date or r/s i nv expect an end to come... though its only a date.. but come on... dating to me is a progress towards r/s... efforts n heart was put into it alrite... im serious even though its only dating...

of cos everybody except S knew tt i weeped... i dun wanna let him see me weakenin.. at least for now... i dun wanna him to feel stressed becos of my emotions... i dun wanna make him feel bad/guilty... to tink tt i can hold back my tears when he suddenly called... well.. mins b4 he called i was still tearing bitterly n i forced myself to stop while answering his call... alrite... one of my resolution tis yr is to stop being a crybaby so i started... at least in front my someone dear to me... (sry frens... guessed u still have to 'endure' my tears for the time being)

ok... i know im famous for my sharp mouth... but i wasnt really using very sharp words on S... still, i made him cry yesterday too... sorry dear... i din expect tt to happen... u must have suffered.. guessed probably u urself is unsure if u r prepared for dating/ r/s... so u r like kinda stressed...

yes... r/s means ur life wld no longer revolve ard u but also another person... thr r some changes u have to made to ur lifestyle n habits... n ya... probably u r not prepared for it... cos u enjoy ur freedom more than anything else... oh well... my decision will depends on u whether u r willin to accept the changes else it might be difficult for the both of us... it doesnt matter if u r adapting SLOWLY but its more bout whether u r WILLING to adapt... tt will depends on u... Sunday will be the day... (gosh, im sayin a little too much when he doesnt even noes my blog)

but will i survive thru tis time?? i hope i wld...

another entry comin up...

reversible---signing off.