Merry Christmas...
merry merry x'mas bloggie..... how's everybody's christmas?? hope they had a joyful one....as for me.... i had a peaceful one... a peaceful n silent one... probably the most suitable x'mas carol at tis moment wld be 'silent nite'..... lolx

x'mas hasnt been good for me over the past few yrs.... goes the same for tis yr.... hangin on... im hangin on as usual...

x'mas is a day which ive been anticipating for... but it always turn out to be sth i rather do without... i always wanted a joyous celebration with frens n loved one... singing x'mas carols, havin x'mas dinner, xchangin presents presents n presents.... but all these seems like a dream nowadays... like a dream tt is so far-fetched.....

hmmm.. let's see... wad our little reversible had for christmas... hmm... well.... i tink... he's got a nice modern cd rack from his office x'mas party.... next, a gift from jerald tt has yet to be collected... (thanks jerald... it was really nice of u n i have urs waiting for u too...)... let's see... wad else we have for our reversible... hmmm... tt's all... reversible was hopin for more... but even his aunt has left him out... probably becos he's already grown up so x'mas present is like no longer necessary?? bloggie.. wad else can i say??

so much so for x'mas... someone also told me str at my face tt i had a mercenary scheme for being with someone.... ya.... someone whom ive spent effort n time on...sincerity n heart.... i was labelled as 'being worse than a callboy'.... n my '2hrs spent waitin for someone is worth for gettin a rich partner in return....' aint tt sounds cheap?? yea... tt's wad reversible got for x'mas.... sorry but i dun wish to comment anymore...

yes.. as im writing thru tis entry my heart aches.... wad happened to the joyful x'mas celebrations with tons n tons of presents tt i used to have when i was a kid?? why did a peacful x'mas turned out to be like tis??

reversible---signing off @ given up hopes for a nice x'mas...

" if u make a trip ard Singapore town... "

bloggie oh bloggie... went town yesterday... watched king kong... not a bad movie but its 3 hrs long... quite an interesting plot though... at least sth new... includes romance, thrilling, touching blah blah blah... alright... im not an expert at commenting movies... so ya... lolx..

went shoppin after tt... remember the other time when i mentioned bout the shoppin vouchers?? yeap yeap.. spent it on a fossil watch... after shortlisting a few with eric n mike, finally decided on one... here's the pic...



how is it??

dan said it was retro---> i fainted...

mum said the strap aint good---> i dun really bother until its worn out

bro said it suits him more---> i punched him.. lolx.. kiddin


apart from the watch, we also get to choose its metal casing.. accordin to the sales assistant, pple specially bought another watch JUST for its casing... isnt tis ridiculous.. well... pple got nth else better to buy u see... =P

oh well.. we also get to choose the paper bag... dot dot dot... oh yes if u cant tell, ive got a green one... hahahahah

i begin to wonder... izzit becos its TANGS or Fossil service was meant to be like tis.. nvm... ive got wad i want n tt's wad matters.. yeah!

priced at $155/- but of cos.. thanks to the shoppin vouchers i paid only a token sum of.................... 5bucks!!! *blink blink blink*




went for photo taking sessions... alright here's one taken outside paragon... we've used 3 phones Nokia 7610,Sony Ericson w800i and Panasonic V3 ( non of these belongs to me alright??) to test out the qualties of each cam phone n tis was one of the samples

three handsome dudes?? oh pukes... wahahahahha

reversible---signing off.

a long weekend...
hmm... had quite a very very long weekend... went shoppin ard sg... alright... where else?? town lor... lolx... went see see look look... gotta plan wad to buy for cny etc... im not kiasu alright... its just tt since now i have the time might as well go look ard n buy if possible rather than waiting for jan when everyone is rushin to buy cny stuff.. some clothes did grasp my attention... but have yet to try them on... still thinkin of how to mix n match them before getting them...

shoes shoes shoes... one of the most headache item... not tt i cldnt find any... its just tt ive found too many... but i only had the intention of gettin one.. wanna noe y?? plus read my previous postings...lolx...

wanna get a watch using my b'day present aka shoppin vouchers... went ard shoppin for fcuk g-star ck or whatever branded clothes... usually when i intend to spend a bomb on clothes i will buy some special, unique or much classy clothes so tt its worth.. but usually i ended up chuckin them in my wardrobe cos i seldom had a chance to wear them... buying t-shirts?? my t-shirts r seasonal based... they will only be with me for awhile... so i guess i better restrain myself tis time round... remember ur pants u bough for tis new yr?? u have yet to wear them more than 10 times i tink!! so investing in a watch is much worth!!

oh btw... i tink i still have like 10 pieces of new clothes n pants which ive yet to wear... =X i didnt buy them all !! some were from mid-yr sales while some were gifts from my friends... not tt i dun wanna wear but its just tt they r new so i wanna wait till a suitable occasion to wear.. but i guess until now... there's none! lolx

im not a spendthrift... i repeat im not a spendthrift alright!!!

reversible---signing off.

updates
yoohooooo..... time for some updates... actually clearing my leave n offs these few weeks... so had quite some time for myself... went window shoppin... nth interests me except a pair of shorts n jacket... x'mas coming... uhm uhm... u noe who u r n wad i mean... =P

nox's 3 mths old tis week... soon will be sendin him for vaccines... he's doin fine n im teachin him some tricks rite now... lolx...

i tink i noe who's tt bloggie who is so secretive visitin my blog n leaving comments n yet dun wanna reveal himself... most likely to be him... hahahaha...

reversible---signin off.

feelings...

bloggie... im feelin so demoralised rite now... the tot of the next day just make me so sick... my heart aches... yes it aches.. probably the first time i felt tis way with issues not relating to r/s... im beginnin to self-pity myself... n of cos a few others... y r we gettin such treatment?? y r we being manipulated?? shld seek help?? from who?? pple r just using underhands to help each other.. connections is the key word...

need a shoulder to lean on? yes i do...

need a listening ear?? i have plenty...

but the problem is... there's no shoulder for me to lean on bloggie... no more..

plenty of listenin ears there r... but these r just some boring stuff tt probably apart frm me, everyone else wld be bored by them... y waste pple's time n tellin them stuff which probably they dun understand??

alright... yet another grumbling session of mine... i'll be fine... nite!

reversible---signing off @ nothing is fair in this world.

THE 3 SOULS...

3 souls sleepin in a small room
pple said tt they're one family
the 3 souls wanted to return home on the dot, they were asked to wait for the rest
pple there said it was morale issue

they said tt they lack manpower
3 souls were sent to assist them
the 3 souls work while some of the pple slack
insufficient manpower but yet they permit such attitude

there were sufficient time but pple didnt want to start work
just b4 the impt day, pple start to rush
ot ot n ot
they have sufficient pple but they still kept the 3 souls back
left the 3 souls n a few hardworking fellows working while they carried on with their chattings

everything was finally over they all were entitled the rest of the day off
however it doesnt apply to the 3 souls
they had to stay, they had to finish their own assigned stuff

tot they said they were one family
tot they talked bout morale issue
what happened??
looking at the 3 pathetic souls, my heart teared...

reversible---siging off.

Today's lessons...

today's lesson is abt mobile phone... as the word mobile refers to "on the move", mobile phone wld equate to a phone tt is always "on the move" n always accessible... but i dun understand y some pple, despite having a mobile phone, they r still inaccessible.... then wad's the pt of having a mobile phone??

another impt lesson today is responsibility... gave ur word, make sure u do it... if u r not confident of doin, pls let pple noe in advance... giving ur word but unable to fulfill it is simply just too irresponsible.. i hate n i repeat myself again, i HATE tis kinda behaviour... besides.. tis is usually the reason accountin for the arguements in my past r/s... if u cant do it or cant promise.. then dun promise... or let them noe tt u r not confident of fulfillin ur promise... dun bring up pple's hope n push them down to the drain... it brings pple disappointment n anyone definitely doesnt deserves tis kinda treatment...

lesson's over!

reversible---signing off as teacher today.

Updates
long time no see... time for updates... hmmm... yup... my doggy is finally back... apart frm some problems which i have yet to solve, he's quite settled down... didnt create much major problems.. really thankful for tt... 2 weeks passed n he's doin quite alright...

well... if u noticed, some postings have been removed... some reasons attributing to tt but i see no reasons to put these reasons up... anyway... have been knowing quite a few nice pple... but somehow or rather im too tired to proceed further... izzit really becos im too tired after so much esp what has been over the past few mths?? or the rite one has yet to appear?? or izzit becos im gettin cold feet?? im really unsure bout it myself...but i guess i will just leave it as it is... whatever will be, will be...

wanted to say more... but the tots r just flying round n round my head tt i dun even noe where to start... another day then.. nite bloggie!

reversible---signing off.

171005 my Yorkie Yorkie...

171005... finally bought my pup... a yorkshire terrier... guess wad? i bought it together with a petshop owner who happens to be an accquaintance of mine... so now at least my little pup will be able to meet up with his sis occasionally... left my pup with the petshop owner for the time being while its waiting to be taken for his first vaccine with his sis tml... meanwhile.. have been busy thinkin of a name for tis little fellow... any suggestions pls let me noe ya... lolx... hopefully can upload his photo soon...

reversible---signing off.

Special Thanks...
special thanks to dom n dan who made effort to celebrate my b'day with me... esp dom who was sick n still drag himself out... really appreciate both ur efforts... though the b'day cake seems a bit not very de well planned...kekeke... went ktv yesterday... had received quite a lot of greetings n wishes frm my family n frens all over... thanks guys... really appreciate u guys for remembering my b'day... lolx... to eric n mike... no worries.. though a lot of stuff has happened btw us... but ive always regard u guys as my very gd frens... no change at all... kekeke... tt's all for today ba... oh ya... seems like my job is getting tougher each day... nonetheless, I WILL SURVIVE!! hee...

reversible---signing off.

My Proud Collection




hahahah... here's my proud collection of 14 pairs of shoes n slippers... kekeke... but gotta clear some of them soon.. izizt consider a lot?? hmm.. was still getting a few more pairs.. but better wait till im enterin uni first... hahahaha..

reversible---signing off.

HO HO HO...
bloggie... just came back frm driving... guess wad.. today's performance is damm good... hahaha... did my 'S' course n 'Crank' course pretty well so the instructor let me carry on with the next lesson... which happens to be directional change... hahaha... i tink im gettin more n more arrogant... started to speed in circuit etc... n the instructor told me not to be too over confident... hahaha... anyway.. tis instructor is not frm my grp but dunno y i was assigned to him... he's a gd instructor in the sense tt he teach based on ur ability... let u go on ur own n correct u only when u make mistakes.. n he left me with a damm great feeling after lesson... overall... tis is the BEST lesson i ever had.. fulfillment, satisfaction n results... hohoho... tt's all for today... nite!

reversible---signing off... ho ho ho...

a different kind of shopping...
phew... bloggie... have been visitin pet shops one after another... online searching for related websites, one after another... nv been to so many pet shops within a week... see until im fainting.. hahaha... went holland v yesterday.. but didnt managed to find any yorkie... at most a silky terrier... still gonna continue my search.. hope i dun have to make a journey to the east... lolx.. tt's all... oh... jerald is coming back in less than 12 hrs time though.. hahaha... wonder how is his trip tis time though...

reversible---signing off.

long time no blog... lolx

hmm.. bloggie... didnt blog for a real long period of time... been quite occupied recently... lolx... was thinking of getting a pup... so have been doin some research online n thru books... so guys, if u see me online but didnt talk much pls understand... cos ive been busily "glueing" my eyes on the various dogs websites.. lolx..

but i have another worry goin ard in my mind... tt's to convince my parents... just brought up tis issue today... n my mum gave me a firm NO.... hai... just knew it... but she always object to the stuff i bought... even to things like shoes, watches, clothes... etc... so at times i just buy it back n she cant do much... but my mum really noes me well.. she noes exactly wad i was thinking... kinda happy to see tis... she told me not to get the dog on my own... n.. tt was exactly wad i was thinking to do... lolx...

though kinda troubled by tis... but also quite amused by my mum regardin her reasons for rejecting my idea.. just tt these cant be put into words... so will i get a pup or not?? hmmm.. let me think think first... at least ive sth on keep my mind occupied rite now... lolx... plus... the breed i wanna get.. yorkshire terrier.. seems very rare in sg... so let's wait till i can find one then i will give my FINAL ANSWER.... hee...

jearld is coming real soon...hmmm... guess he must have missed sg real much... probably will meet him next week too... lolx...

tt's all for today...

reversible---siginin off.

NUS... cldnt wait to get there...lolx...

hmm.. its a long time since i last made an entry... had quite a busy week last week though... but guess now its back to low period once again... yup yup... went nus yesterday... visited one of the hostels... quite a very nice n happening place... its quite diff from wad i had in mind.. of cos it was better la... lolx... hmmm... cldnt wait to continue my studies n shift there too... lalala... wonder how is it like to stay alone n independent from home...

hmmm... actually there were a couple of things which i wanted to blog abt... but somehow or rather i guess i had put them at the back of my mind till now i cldnt find them back.. hahaha ... oh btw... was at gym tis afternoon... saw tis pair of nike sneakers tis guy was wearin... i was so captivated by it... uh uh... no no... reversible.. u have too many pairs of shoes n stop addin to tt collection of urs!!! hahahah

really couldnt remember wad i wanna mention over here... next time ba...

two weeks have past.. jerald u have two more weeks to go... hang on there... lolx...

reversible---signing off.

friend or FOOL??

defination of frens?? hmmm.. i tot frens will be there when u need them... ha... ive met someone with a diff defination... i have no intention of picking up a quarrel... but need to get it off my chest... hmmm... i dun see y when one's feeling down, one fren can just refuses to talk to u when u need them...n u were talking bout frens?? being frens to such an extent dun u tink its just so meaningless... wad's the pt then?? come online n chat?? wad if... wad if.. it happened to be an urgent call n with regards to life n death matter?? will u be guilty for the REST OF UR LIFE... or probably it wld be thrown to the back to ur mind in split seconds??

"l dun think u'll ever see someone else trying to salvage a frenship with his ex like l'm doin now"

now u r telling ur ex tt u see no pt bearin grudges n wanna be frens... is tt how u gonna treat him as well?? or its just me who receives tis kinda treatment?? im so disappointed in u... nv had i experience such an encounter... touch ur heart n search ur conscience... frens?? or fool?? i really wonder... i start to see myself as a fool... i begin to have doubts in u... im swayin over to ur ex's side... y did he choose to break up with u?? y?? was it really his fault?? or there were hidden reasons... ive heard enough of ur actions outside... but i choose to believe u... did i make a wrong choice?? being frens to tis extent can it be still considered frens?? i really wonder... after so much ive done we ended up as frens but up till tis pt... i dun see the sincerity in u... sad to say i really dun... touch ur heart n asked urself again... do u really treat me as a fren in the first place.. if u do how come ur actions says otherwise?? is tt how u treat ur fren?? even 'sir' is willin to lend a listenin ear but u... im just so disappointed

n im kinda disgusted by ur last entry... im sorry bout tt.. i just cldnt help.. from ur blog it seems to pple tt u r the nice person who has been hurt... u seems like the nice person wanting to make frens... but ur actions really really cant convinced me.. in actual fact do the pple noes wad kinda person u r?? how u actually treat pple?? i just couldnt convinced myself... r u just puttin up a show to show pple how nice u r??? if u r really trying to make frens with ur ex then how come u treat ur own frens like tis?? or probably u have ur own reasons?? i seriously dunno...

im just so utterly disappointed in u... if fact i seriously tink tt u dun act like ur age at all... n i mean AT ALL... yes... im gettin upset... i cldnt less be bothered bout ur feelings when u r readin tis... if u bother... pls do some SELF-REFLECTIONS regarding ur actions n urself... it just saddens me... it has been a long time since i last put such a long entry so u shld noe how much it affected me...

reversible---signing off UTTERLY DISAPPOINTED...

SUPER... SUPERSTAR

just finished the grand finale of superstar... missed it the other time cos of driving lessons... well... overall was not too bad... just tt the advertisements are kinda disturbing... if only they have the concert non-stop w/o any intervals...

there were many comments bout wei lian winning the title of SUPERSTAR... i guess its inevitable given tt the comments given by the judges were all in favour of kelly while the results turn out to b otherwise... in my opinion i wasnt very happy bout tt as well... my support goes out to kelly... it all depends on how one define superstar... for me.. a superstar would be one who can presents himself... he must be an all-rounder.. can sing can dance can presents in terms of expressing himself.. physically n vocally... between the two... kelly wld fit the bill...

im not saying wei lian cant... but i guess it takes more effort to become one... n it wld require a lot n i mean real hard work to achieve tt... n it wld be quite diff for him to rise in the competitive mkt... well... hope im wrong.. in any case.. wish both of them all the best in their future singing career...

P/S: these r my personal opinion n i have nth against any of them... just my preferences... so pls do not bombard me with any comments...

reversible---signing off.

some stuff...

jerald rang me up on wed.. haha... was kinda surprised though... really nice of him to call... but didnt chat much cos of the bills... if only overseas bill charges the same as local bill... lolx... well...guess it will be a while b4 i will see u again... u have bout 3 weeks +++ to go... endure ya.. hope to see u soon... =)

asked for Butch back from jim yesterday... since it means nth to jim... might as well asked it back from jim cos i tink i need him more than jim rite now... sorry jim...

some tots just suddenly came into my mind these days... outta nowhere... really outta nowhere.. i wonder y... did affected me in one way or another but guess im still coping fine though... yes... reversible.. u'll be fine...

reversible---signing off.

HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!!
specially took off to visit my sec sch teachers today... sch didnt really change much but ive realized tt some teachers have aged...

hmm... in the past when i returned... we seems to be their only graduated students... but right now seeing so many other younger graduated batch of students made me realize tt actually we r really quite senior in another words... old... lolx...

anyway one of my teacher was telling me tt i look more mature... i was like -_-'''... i always tot tt i look young for my age but now she's telling me otherwise... n she's one of those whom i meet frequently.. so i must have aged quite a lot these mths... lolx... perhaps too tired n tied down by other issues over the past few mths... but nvm... things r getting better...

to all teachers out there.. HAPPY TEACHER'S DAY!!

reversible---signing off.

keepin things short n simple...

bloggie, pple r complainin tt my postings r too long n 'chim'... lolx... so for the sake of pple like mike, dan etc, im trying hard to shorten them n make it simplier... lolx... hope i can keep to tis kinda posting cos im quite a lengthy person... whahahaha...

hmmm... jerald just made his way to thailand tis morning... take care dude... bon voyage n take gd care of urself ya... use tis opportunity to sort out ur tots n rest ur mind alright...

went clubbin on sat... feelin is kinda diff... probably becos didnt go there for a long time.. so trying hard to adapt to tt kinda environment... plus... probably with the absence of mike n eric which made it diff for me to really enjoy tt nite..

bloggie... i really hope to get myself a digicam for my b'day... but if i do tt i would be wastin a lot of $$ which could be put to better use... shld i buy it n live on a tight budget or shld i just forgo my desire n lead a carefree life w/o having to worry bout my expenses at all??

reversible---signing off.

JAGUAR !!!
hey bloggie... guess wad?? i finally got the chance to seat on a jaguar... lolx... it happened tt one of my superior's dad owns a transport company so she brought us to her apartment to see the cars her family own... i had a ride one the latest 2.8 litre jaguar (model unknown)... its 2.8 litres!!! though its red in colour but it looks pretty fine n stylish... high end luxury car is really luxury... the feeling was superb... the seat is so cushioned tt it feels like someone is hugging u from the back... its very comfortable... the interior design is also very classy n most of the stuff in the car is digital... the engine wasnt loud at all... we made a tour with tt car... journey was smooth n comfortable n not noisy (engine) at all... lolx... there was another jaguar...tink its the millenium series... limited edtion... dunno there's only how many in the world..forgot... its 4 litres!!! -_-''' lolx... though the design is not as stylish... but still... its so much bigger...didnt have a ride in tt though.... lolx... yup yup... bloggie... im so fascinated by cars... esp luxury car... its one of the motivating factor to keep me moving all these while... hee... will it shakened my liking for bmw?? im not sure at the moment... lolx...

reversible---signing off feeling great!!

broadband finally...
hi bloggie..... finally got my broadband service today... hahaha... yup... for ur info... ive been usin 56k all these while...cos... im not a frequent online user...so actually it doesnt matter to me until recently... when the bill goes up n up... since there was a promotion so mum suggested gettin tt instead... anyway tink now its much economically worth to get it... any updates bout me?? nah... still the same... same old me trying to live happily... lolx... anyway tried soccer last week with my colleagues... its was quite some time since i last played soccer (i tink i last played in pri 2) lolx... n i cant play tt game for goodness sake... lolx.. hmm... wonder how jer is doin... hope he's doin fine... kinda tired so tt's all for today... nite!

reversible---signing off.

Bloggin day
bloggie... actually haven been very actively online these days.... kinda sick of facing com typin n typing... dun really enjoy tis kinda communication... anyway... seems like jer n jayden r having quite a heated up arguement in their blogs... bout two months ago when tis kinda issue happen, wad came into my mind was to calm jer down n to comfort him... but when i read both of their blogs yesterday wad came into my mind was tt i felt so envious... serious... cos well... at least he's "willing to do anything" as long as jayden treats him as fren... i was like... wow... tis shows how much jayden means to jer ba i supposed... dun tink jer ever said tt to me... lolx... but well... diff pple diff treatment i supposed... better face the reality reversible!!! nah... im alright... just as i expected... here comes the bombarding session in their blogs... but was glad tt jer took a step back... at least for now... jer, its no pt n meaningless if tis goes on n on becos it boils down to nth except fustrations n war of words... n probably hatred?? im unsure... but one thing im pretty sure of... he's has taken up a very big part in ur heart in the past n probably till now... n im very very far behind him....

To eric:
it seems like u dun get wad im trying to say... n wad u r tryin to justify just doesnt make sense to me... my pt is tt... these r my personal affairs... y reveal it to let the whole world noes?? so wad if u r not updated or updated?? if i ever let u noe... its meant for u n only u... no one else shld noe unless i decided to share with them... besides... i didn look for becos u r so occupied now... sch work.. plus baker... u tink u'll still have time to listen to my ridiculous stories?? n u tink i wld wan to trouble u with tt when u r already so busy?? it seems to me tt u r just unhappy tt i post in my blog as though our failed meetings was due to u thus trying to speak up... but in any case it wasnt meant to be like wad u tot... just tink of it (when u r feeling much better)... i dun wanna probe in further... let tis end here... rite here rite now... dun bring up tis issue anymore... full stop...

reversible---signing off.

summary n a note...
sat:
met jer for movie... charlie n the chocolate factory... it was quite a nice movie... so fairy-liked.. somehow or rather brought me back to the past n make me feel as though im still a little boy watching such fairy tale movie.... hmmm... seems like now my topics with jer r changing?? we're like talkin bout careers, cars, houses... future prospects in general... lolx... overall, the meeting was enjoyable... =)

today:
-most busy n tiring day i ever had ever since i started working
-not only under sun, climbin up n down
- also had to use lots of strength, get myself dirtied
-legs ache till now
-knock off late
-overall- very tired

hmm... which kinda writing style is better??

note to eric:
i have not changed... its just tt the time tt u got to noe me i wasnt attached n u haven seen my breakups aftermath before... i choose to leave u guys alone its becos i dun wanna my mood to affect u guys in one way or another... u jolly well noe mike's character.. n usually when im down i choose to be alone n do the things i feel like doin n relax myself... tt explains my behaviour recently...

ive said before tt no one has the rite to comment on any r/s unless its the parties involved tt r commenting... n ive told u how pissed i was when mike used to comment on my r/s with jas.. dun u tink tt now u r doin the same?? with regards to my recent r/s, i guess no one is fit to comment on it except for me n jer... reason is becos only the parties involved noe exactly wad's goin on n how they feel thus they r the only one who fit n qualified to comment on the r/s...u can voice ur opinions but it seems to me tt u r not only voicing how u feel but u r tellin me wad i m doin instead...maybe im wrong?? n probably u could have tell me using other channels or methods... besides, u shld noe tt im a very private person... i dun really like to let the whole world noe bout my personal stuff esp r/s... dun u tink tt u shld give me a certain level of respect with regards to tt?? (given the no of popular fans who frequent ur blog) in addition... i dun see y u have to bring up my r/s issue into tt particular posting since ur purpose is to clarify the clubbing issue?? plus... u do not have the latest updates between me n him dun u tink tt its a bit wrong of u to put down facts tt r not updated n relevant??

in any case i was just merely puttin down my tots... my blog now is kinda a diary unlike urs which is meant to leave ur tots specially for a particular person etc... it wasnt meant to let u see on purpose... n i did not have any intention to blame anyone... hope u understand tt alright?? i seriously wanna close tis case n dun wish to jeopardise our friendship further...

btw i understand the clubbing issue tt's y i didnt probe further into it... n if u read tt particular posting carefully, i was more of asking myself qns rather than blaming u or mike in any way... hope u can see my point alright?? =)

reversible---signing off.

tv shows bring back memories...
hmmm... was supposed to go out today... actually agreed to meet up with dan to club but ended up didnt turn up... sorry dan... reasons??
1. wanna catch the last episodes of a couple of drama series which ive been following
2. didnt have the mood
3. have an appointment tml

watched tis variety show on channel 8 today... bryan wong was like tryin to learn pottery... saw how he amused himself n others... getting himself n others into laughters again n again... how i wished he was my fren... can always keep me entertained... hahaha... somehow he reminds me of myself in my jc times...

missed those times where i kept disturbing pple, making them pissed but yet keepin them entertained... lolx... enjoyed myself so much then... went thru thick n thin with them... sharing our unhappiness, anger, complaints with each other.. really miss tt...

few mths back candy asked if i was alrite... she said im not wad i used to be... though i still crap ard n stuff but somehow she can sense tt sth was wrong... hmm.. actually i cldnt give her an answer either... i dun even noe wad's wrong then... bloggie... even till now i couldnt figure wad's wrong... izzit becos im doin sth which i dun enjoy now... ie. my work... doin meaningless things tt i dun enjoy... or im burdened by r/s stuff?? im unsure... but i guess these small little things play a part?? i wished i cld be like the past crapping jumpin all ard... but cld it also be tt ive grown up now, thus i can no longer find tt kinda energy to be who i used to be?? hmmm... really makes me wonder...

reversible---signing off.

Happy Birthday S'PORE!!!
hmmm.... went to watch fireworks at esplanade today... the fireworks was so beautiful... n guess wad?? i was standing rite in front of where the firworks was... the fireworks just went on n on... "bom! bom!" one after another... wad a spectacular sight... the fireworks was so close to me a of a sudden... if only it was at ecp... n with no crowds... it would be marvellous... hahahaha... oh btw i went to watch with vance n his fren... plus his fren's frens.... hmmm... confusing??

anyway was supposed to meet eric n baker as well... but first.. they didnt contact me when they reach?? probably it was too crowded... was thinkin of meeting them after tt... then came eric's msg telling me baker was sick n wanna go home... i was like -_-"' total turn off... perhaps ive been wanting to meet him n mike for a very long time...somehow or rather sth stupid came into my mind... it seems to me tt eric now puts his partner above everything... y do i say so??for instance wanna ask eric to club.. he told me baker gotta work the next day he didnt wan to go... then supposed to meet him yesterday evenin.. then he told me baker finish his job quite late so most prob he(baker) doesnt wanna come... so he's not coming either... i was like... bloggie... things seems so different now... who's rite n who's wrong i have no idea... but surely he can allocate some time for frens at least?? it wasnt like tis when all the three of us were attached... i remembered when we were attached we used to bring our partners out n join us... n though we were attached we were still very closed unlike now... hmmm... has things changed or im pessimistic bout the 3 of us??

quotes for tots:
A relationship or love also means learning how to keep ur agenda and ur love's agenda together and strike a win-win situation. In other words, both parties must try to enjoy similiarities and embraces each other differences, can you?

reversible---signin off.

Family day??
hmm... today's my uncle's b'day... went over to my grandma's place for dinner n a small celebration... my poor cousin was waiting for me to join her for her meal tt she fell asleep on the sofa... poor girl... didnt tell me or i'll hurried there ma... tis little cousin of mine is so silly... saw my uncle... m glad tt he's takin things easy... saw his smile n his usual nonsense... at least i feel better seein him like tis... met my grandma n saw how she aged... dunno y... perhaps she had been busy... her hair has turned grey... n she didnt dye it... perhaps she really aged... but still as caring n concern... always getting food for us... offering us food after food... lolx... had some fun n laughter over there.. my bro n cousin always fight n bicker ard... its such an entertainment for me... lolx... oops... but as usual... after losing the fight... my little cousin will come to me grumbling... hahaha... silly girl... she even once said tt she's gonna marry me when she grow up.... whahaha... does she knows what she's sayin??

some unexpected stuff happened today... but i shall keep it to myself for the moment... hee...

reversible---signing off.

Loving the beach at nite!!!!
was home alone today... nobody's at home by the time i woke up... hmmm... its a long long time since i had the whole house to myself... did some cookin today... maggi mee... lolx... n a cup of ribena... its only for myself to eat so y bother to cook up some dishes just for myself rite?? i enjoy maggi mee anyway... yup yup... then watch a bit of tv... kinda peaceful n slack... tt the kind of simple peaceful life tt i want... it would be better if my loved one is here with me of cos...

in the evening... make a trip down to ECP... (east coast park)... kinda toubled n stuff so wanna go there for a walk or sth... good gracious... the beach is simply too wonderful.. marvellous... superb... i actually wanted to think thru n sort out my tots n worries while in the beach... but tt place was just so relaxing tt it just made me throw all my worries away n just enjoy the beautiful nite scenery... i was amazed by its ability to make me throw everythin behind my back... quite a lot of stars tonight... i mean ive seen more stars then today but probably in sg, tis is the nite where ive seen the most stars hangin in the sky... the nite view was superb... sparklin lights from the opp shore n ships... sea waves gushing up the shore... sea breeze across my face... very coolin very enjoyable... n with my ipod shuffle listening to the music i had... the feeling is... aaahhhhhh... nice nice nice... sat there like for 2.5 hours.. just facin the sea n the opp shore.. didnt even wanna come back until i realize tt it was already 10.30pm... it has always been a dream of mine to go to the beach with my loved one... but seems like im not fated to do tt... nvm... i shall go there myself... just me n my beach... hee... maybe i'll go again tml nite... lolx... no gd shows anyway...


reversible--- signing off... loving the beach at nite...

Pondering...
somehow i dun understand y can pple fool ard when they are already attached?? over the past few mths ive seen how pple can actually betray their partnets behind their back... first it was jayden who two-timed... he can actually pretend nth happen while sleepin n getting together with others behind jer's back...

second is my ex-colleague... tt time actually heard him saying bout goin to some ktv lounge... (not those decent ones alright) n heard him talkin bout what he did with this girl tt girl... n guess what?? i actually saw him with a girl tt week... n... i just found out tt tt girl is his gf... -_-''' come on... if u fool ard when u r single... though im not very supportive bout it but i guess its alright... but u r attached... goodness.. how can u fool ard behind her back?? just imagine if she found out what happen... how u expect her to accept tis?? n what's more?? he's goin batam soon, callin some of us along.. go batam for holiday?? u wish... pple u shld noe wad's his purpose there... somehow i dun understand y pple can behave like this... if u wish to fool ard then dun get urself committin to a r/s... u only harm n ruin another's life... i couldnt imagine if his gf found out wad's goin on... the poor girl... hope i wont get to see her or i wldnt noe how to face her... but of cos... i didnt comment much cos im not very close to him...

third... xavier... ya.. he's my fren.. met him while i was on my way for driving last week... found out he's attached... but guess what he told me next?? he told me tt he found his bf's fren goodlooking n was thinkin of goin after him... i was like.. wad the heck??!!! i told him off... what he's looking for is someone gdlookin.. n just simply jumps from one to another... then wad's the pt?? is tis the purpose of r/s?? no doubt looks might matters... but jumpin from one to another is like... simply too ridiculous... yes u might be gdlookin now n can afford to do tis... but looks doesnt remains like it is forever... heart does... is tt how one shld behave when in r/s?? is tt consider commitment?? i really wonder if these pple noes.. im not an expert when it comes to r/s but at least i noe the basics... probably he has yet to discover tt... have been tellin him umpteen times but guess it just doesnt drive into his head... well... i did my part by telling him bout my opinion... but seems like he doesnt bother at all... i'll respect his decision... afterall.. its his personal life... i have no right to interfere...

reversible---signing off disappointed with these pple...

Kopi boy??
hi bloggie... hmmm... finally got tis neoprint uploaded... have been too lazy to scan it to my com.... lolx... anyway tis is the most recent me... if u guys remember i had a gatherin with my sec sch frens a few weeks ago n here's the evidence... lolx... yeap yeap... tt's me with my singlet for the very first time... bought a couple of them cos the weather was simply too hot not beocs i had biceps or what alright??!!! but... just when ive decided to wear them... the weather started to change... seems like it has been raining these days... lolx... btw do i look like a kopi boy in the coffeeshop?? oh no...

had been knockin off very early over the past few days so i managed to re-watch my fav tv series... "xing suo" by fann n chrsitopher if u guys had any recollection of them... was a present frm these frens of mine... its a romance series... so ya quite nice.. only watched a few episodes though... one of which today was a scene where fann's ex, ix shen regretted breakin up for another girl n came apologizing thru various actions... the sweetest stuff he did was to get an acappella grp to her workplace n sang a song specially composed for her... i was like wow... lolx... simply just so sweet...

i was reading 8-days recently n found out tt chen hong yu... michalle's chia's current bf... actually drove a bmw 3 series... n guess wad?? if im not wrong i tink he's now only doin part time acting... n he drives a bmw??!!! i was like... -_-''' nvm... i'll work my way up to own tt car too... yeap yeap... jia you reversible!! =)

tt's bout it for today... work has been quite gd for me these few days... personal stuff?? hmm... leave it for another day ba... =P

btw sth i came across in tong xin yuan today... goes sth like tis... "like is little love... love is lots of likes"... sound so profound... lolx...

reversible---signing off @ 10.35pm

Specially for my FRIENDS... =)
welcome to this special posting specially posted for a couple of my frens... tis pics includes me n two of my best frens mike n eric.... its a long time n i mean real long time since i last met them...

hey dudes... its really a very long time since ive last seen u guys.. lotsa things happened tis yr... i've broke up, met a crush, had a date... though diff pple but one thing in common... i had no outcome with them... yes... its mentally toturing... n i mean it... though its wasnt as bad as wad i used to go thru when i had probs with jas but all these happened one after another... so im kinda like mentally tired... went mia for a moment... cos i needed some time for myself... my complexion at tt time was getting worse so didnt really wanna go out at e same time... though e situation is improving but i still wanna leave some time for myself at least for now.. do wadever i feel like doin... so give me more time n i'll contact u guys soon alright...

Personal note to:
Eric: u r more understanding n mature in terms of thinking as compared to mike... i noe the 3 of us r getting more distant becos of my absence but i had no choice... i dun wanna u guys to be turned off during our meetings jus becos of my 'moodyness' n depression... i noe u r upset to see me behaving like tis... esp when u cant do anything to make me feel better... but no one can help me except myself... dun worry i'll be back... it took me so far to get to where i m today so i wont fall to the rock bottom like wad happened in jason's case alright?? meanwhile help me to explain to mike alright? he needs pple to explain e situation to him...'

Mike: though have not been in contact with u but i noe wad u've gone thru tis few mths... it had been hard on u.. so sorry i couldnt be there to console u cos i need help myself... e reason y i contact eric but not u its becos im not prepared to talk to u... u cant stand me being so upset n depress n u will end up disagreeing with wad im doin rite now... we'll most prob end up quarrelling due to our character... so i wld rather contact u when im alright... but trust me... i really miss those days where the 3 of us hang out together making a fool out of ourselves... meanwhile u take care alright??

Donaldvan: sorry i dunno if ive got e correct spellin... tink yi xiong suits u more... lolx... u have been a great fren... though u have a weird character when i first met u... im glad tt i was able to break the 'cold ice' in u... haha... u r really some gnice to hang ard... u wldnt probe much if i didnt wanna say anything n u just waste ur time idling with me just to keep me company... really appreciate it... noe u r busy with ur projects recently so jia you alright??

Dan: hihi tamagotchi... thanks for tryin so hard to console me n cheering me up...though u r goin thru hiccups in ur r/s... its gd tt u r working at least ur mind is occupied n wont tink so much ya... hope things will get better as time pass by... but one advice to u... its either u accept him for who he is or u just give up on him... so its up to u to decide.. if not u r only wasting ur time... i noe its easier said than done... so just try ur best ba... hahaha.. isnt it funny... we r both feeling so down n we're both trying so hard to cheer each other up... hahahaha.... thanks man... nice to noe u... (thanks to eric... eric u noe wad i mean... lolx...)

the rest of my frens: im sorry its too long to leave a personal msg to each n everyone of u... but thanks for being there for me all these while... really appreciate all ur efforts to cheer me up... at e same time hope u guys r doin fine... n hope to meet up with u guys to do some catchin up soon ya... =)

reversible--- signing off @9.16pm

Did some catching up with frens today...
hmmm... a rather slack day... guess wad?? i went to my workplace n slept till noon b4 i went for my lunch... cos no one's ard to delegate jobs for us to do so we ended up in the rest room sleeping till it was luch time... after lunch also did nth much... then continue to slack again... met han, wui n sue just now for dinner... did some catchin up... most of them r startin sch soon le... han bought me this "bandana" or some pple call it head dress... nice of her but... erm... can u imagine me with tt?? lolx... well its the tot tt counts... thanks han... she wont be seeing tis blog though... hahaha... really miss those time in jc with them... they've seen me thru e lowest pt of my life n we've been supporting each other in terms of our personal n work life..so ya... really treasure my frenship with them.. three cheers for them ya!!! lolx... kk... i better find some time for my special posting for my friends whom ive neglected these few mths... for those who r regulars here... pls keep a lookout... will try to get it done asap... cya!!

reversible---signing off @9.58pm.

Time to work...
good evening bloggie... went to my uncle's office tis morning at 5 plus... goodness... just came back not too long ago... stayed in office like bout 11.5 hrs... so shack... went to their company for on-site examination... was surprised to find tt the nice office they used to have its no longer there... they have closed one factory n converted it to an office instead cos its much convenient since two factories are in the same building unlike the nice office they used to have, was in the next building... saw how hard my aunty worked... she was clearing up the stores... clearing stuff etc.. cant believe it... wearing heels climbing up n down... i felt so much for her... what happened to the career women she once used to be... ive bought her branded handbags, perfume, etc... she deserves to lead a much better life... but what i used to buy for her seems to be useless now... was so shocked when i found out how much she actually pumped into this company... a complete change in her life... she has turned to an avg class worker sloggin in the factory, company... ive gone thru a day's work at the company n i realize how tiring it can be working for like 12hrs?? really so heartbroken to see her working so hard n so troubled by so much stuff... wanted to help her but i have my limitations... cos they need pple to be ard all the time which i cant... the only thing i can do now is to advice her in terms of management n analysis... will be collecting the data spreadsheet frm her to analyse the company's current situation.... then see what we can do... actually did some analysis today in the office... shldnt be tt bad... as long as we stablise the operation guess things wld be better... i'll try to see how i can help her n bring the company back on track... she dotes so much on me so its only right for me to contribute back in whatever way i can... kk... tt's bout it...

reversible---signing off having so much tots...

Sth interesting bout myself...
hihi bloggie... hmmm... today was quite alright... driving on the road was still ok but still need to prac more... some weakness tt i discover today...
1. braking n stopping skills r not there yet... unable to stop the car to my desired position
2. need more prac on my turning esp in the circuit... dunno y i can turn pretty well on the road but otherwise for my circuit... y???

went to celebrate my sec sch best fren's b'day together with some frens... was quite homely... he slimmed down a lot during ns.. we did some catchin up n had lunch cum dinner at suki sushi... goodness... i was so full tt i cant walk properly n wanted to vomit... wonder how big is their stomach... went shopping after tt... bought myself a belt cos i forgot to wear mine today n my jeans kept on falling... lolx...

saw tis at someone's blog one day... so decided to share sth bout myself...

Libra - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits:
You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type" ... successfully!
You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out.
You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person.

Your negative traits:
You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you.
You still may not know it.
You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date...
You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself.

Your ideal partner:
A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you to.
Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner.I
Someone beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense.

Your dating style:
Romantic. If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars.

Your seduction style:
Giving. Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own.
Soft and sensual - you don't like anything to be rough.
Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love.

Tips for the future:
Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes.
Try being single for a while. Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so.
Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now. You'll be happy that you did.

alright... so much for today... just hope things between us can get better?? let's hope so...

reversible--- signin off @ 11.33pm.