integrity

bloggie,

do you know how humiliating it can be when someone doubt one's integrity? and tt person so happened to be one who used to be so closed to you? I had always been firm on my moral values and thus, this is affecting me so much.

first i felt humilated and pissed, but gradually it evolved into a heartbreaking feeling. someone whom you have treated with sincerity and with love in the past, turned out to be someone who doesnt even trust you now and doubt your integrity.

first i was seen as mercenary, and now my integrity is being doubt. alright, i think this is enough. why are these happening and coming from those pple whom i have treated them with my sincerity, be it in friendship or relationship?

bloggie, im lost and confused and maybe, speechless.

reversible---signing off @ i just had to leave half thru today's programme.

Feet Unbound

Hi bloggie,

its the national arts festival and i just went to catch a film called 'Feet Unbound'. This is a film which talks about the females who actually joined the red army in the Long March. Most pple are actually preceive the Red Army as a fully male orientated environment (of cos i was also one of them). But who actually knows that due to poverty, even the females joined in the 12,000 km Long March braving through the harsh weather and conditions together with the males and fought against the war lords?

They did interview some of the female soldiers in the film and I was touched by their courage to withstand all odds and survived till today, even resorting to eating belts just because they were made of yak. Not forgetting seeing the 'cuter' side of them, singing their patriotic songs in the film itself was an interesting sight.

Well, being a History student, I did learn a little about China's history but with regards to the female patriots who fought hard, I was totally clueless. Quite a sightful film though it was not very well taken.

reversible---signing off.

interviews

bloggie,

i have been attending some interviews over the week. I have gotten one but I couldnt agree to the pay so I rejected the offer. The company is gd, well known and established, job is relevant to my future education. pleased with my resume and all, just the pay which hinders everything and the agent refused to 'up' the pay.

went to another on thurs. went through the interview. They say will contact me by friday but till now thr's no reply. Probably monday will be the only hope. I really wish to get into this job. gd exposure and experience, with a change of environment. I'm keepin my fingers crossed, hopefully they wld ring me up on monday, offer me the job with a decent pay. wish me luck yea?

on a lighter note, my manager sms me yest night to tell me my testimonial is ready for collection. In fact im the first to get it in the company. oh... i cant help but to feel honoured to get this as a temp staff.

reversible---signing off wish me luck on monday!

uploaded photos

pictures from sunday's outing.

my two beloved friends.

mike and I at Hans.

Eric and I at Spinelli.. hmm did i get the spelling right? anyone?

the gift from Eric from Hong Kong Disneyland.

I know i look like crap. all because of eric who asked me to button all e way up. but i really liked this shirt. if not for the price......

same print but different design. can you spot the difference? but i prefer the first one.

tt's all.

reversible---signing off.

Stress relievers for the day

1.After being with his blind date all evening, the man couldn't take another minute with her. Earlier, he had secretly arranged to have a friend call him to the phone so he would have an excuse to leave if something like this happened. When he returned to the table, he lowered his eyes, put on a grim expression and said, "I have some bad news. My grandfather just died." "Thank heavens," his date replied. "If yours hadn't, mine would have had to!"

it took me some time to understand this joke

2.A man was reading the paper when an ad caught his eye. It loudly announced, "$500 Porsche! New!" The man thought that it was very unusual to sell a Porsche for $500, and he thought it might be a joke, but he said to himself, 'it's worth a shot.' So he went to the lady's house who was selling the Porsche and she led him into the garage. Sure enough, there was an almost brand new Porsche. "Wow!" the man said, "Can I take it for a test drive?" "Sure," answered the lady. Unlike what he expected, the man found that the car ran perfectly. When he got back to the lady's house, he asked her, "Why are you selling me this great Porsche for only $500?" Then the lady replied with a laugh, "My husband just ran off with his secretary, and he told me, 'You can have the house and the furniture, just sell my Porsche and send me the money.'

this is a nasty wife though. lol

3.A teacher was working with a group of children, trying to broaden their horizons through sensory exploration. With their eyes closed, they would feel objects from pumice stones to pine cones and smell aromatic herbs and exotic fruits. One day, the teacher brought in a great variety of Lifesavers candies, more flavors than you could ever imagine. "Children, I'd like you to close your eyes and taste these", said the teacher. Without difficulty, they managed to identify the taste of cherries, lemons and mint, but when the teacher had them put honey Lifesavers in their mouths, all of the children were stumped. "I'll give you a hint", said the teacher. "It's something your Mommy probably calls your Daddy all the time". Instantly, one child spat the Lifesaver candy out of his mouth and yelled, "Spit 'em out, you guys! They're ***holes

alright this is funny but crude

reversible---signing off.

YAY!

hi bloggie.

quite a roller coaster ride today in office.

my manager decided to give me a testimonial before I leave the company. i was asking her last week and was told that the company do not have the practice to give testimonial to their staff including perm but I could put her as a referal. Called her this afternoon and she told me that she had checked with the HR dept and they said it was up to the manager if they want to give and thus, she decided to give me one!! YAY! do i noe how happy I was? Probably I am the first who was ever given a testimonial and for all the 'extra miles' I have given to the company, i was really hoping for a good one from them and now I'm given what I wanted!! hmmm.. i was hoping for a pay rise as what I am doin now has surpassed my job scope but i guess that is quite impossible though. nvm. be contented can?? -.-

alright, after the good news, I realized I made a mistake in a consolidation of data. hi for goodness sake, i save one portion of the data over my master copy of 400 data and this would mean that I have to redo the consolidation for scratch??!! can you imagine that. I was like.... how cld I ever make such an error!! anyway got it done after spending abt an hour or two on it.

case closed. end of day.

reversible--signing off @ I'm glad I'm getting a testimonial even as a temp staff from my manager.

updates

hello!! met with eric and mike yest. the meetin was great. photos to be uploaded soon.

anyway this post is meant for my tots. somehow i cant help but wonder why am i the one who always get 'played out'. i really wonder. whether its intentional or unintentional (who on the earth will admit its intentional, if one does, he really deserves a slap), over the past few years and i mean years, i always the one getting played out.

oh well. some might say its just luck and to a certain extend, probably i have to agree it has to do with luck though. and not as though im a hunk or sth.

just gotta remind myself to stay positive these days. esp when i saw him updating his status today, cant help but to feel helpless.

nonetheless, just my favourite song, 'i will survive!'

on a side note: while im typing this, this Nox kept disturbing bro's guinea pig. i really hope nth tragic happens. btw, bro's hammies gave birth to a 2nd batch of babies yesterday again. dot. can i repeat myself again, 'i do not like rodents!!'

reversible---signing off.